Sudden Homicidal Urges
January 2, 2009
I Should Talk Like That Particular DotA Player I Met Once.
“Kill The Pudge In Top”
“DD Rune In Bot River”
“Push Mid”
“For Great Justice”
Anyway!
My solution pathway has hit a dead end. So I shall start reworking on the assumption that infatuation is no longer the purest, most desirable thing on earth, and pursue temporarily some other issues.
Nevertheless this is not a renunciation – but neither does it actually have any impact since I haven’t actually done much. It is a reprioritization of weight in the seas of the mind – bogged down with baggage, one sinks and another floats..
The world of the higher echelons of the 1700s and 1600s is looking more and more desirable the more I think about it.
Library books left to read – 5. Returned 4, borrowed 2.
I cannot lose my mind. I cannot afford it now. But I still feel like killing someone. Or jumping off my balcony. Some back of my mind expects that I’ll land safely on two feet and another part proclaims that it is the ultimate experiment of whether faith works or not.
Line between madness and genius! Thin! Reaching messiah complex critical stage…
A healthy amount of egoisticism is needed to annihilate psychological barriers.
